Rožica 2

*playing with Photoshop (or Fireworks) is fun :)

Mr Lordi from Finland

Wings on my back
I got horns on my head
My fangs are sharp
And my eyes are red
Not quite an angel
Or the one that fell
Now choose to join us or go straight to Hell

We have the winner! :) I like Eurovision, I really do :)

I found out they even do their own costumes and of course write their own lyrics and all. My respect!

You can find the interview here and the whole lyrics here.

Rožica

You can't always get what you want
And if you try sometime you find
You get what you need

studentski-informator.com

We've been working till 1am yesterday with two friends, students, from predagogical art faculty, on one of their assigments - and we came up with Študentski Informator - an online forum for students.

Quote of the day:
"If you can't be with the one you love, - love the one you're with."

The Garden

peppermint


Preperations for planting an asparagus


lettuce


vine


cherries


..and the bike (of course)

Bolje z biciklom v kurbarijo kot pa z mercedesom na delo!!!!

My friend's statement today. It means "Better with the bicycle to the kurbarija* than with Mercedes to work!" :)

*kurbarija is hard to translate. Kurba = whore. But in this case it's not meant whore-house, but more in general, going to "kurbarija" means more like going out after girls with sexual intensions

Just another beautiful morning

Already wednesday, feels like monday. This week will pass very quickly, again. Such a beautiful morning, so fresh and sunny, big beautiful lilac is blooming just outside and it smells like spring at it's best..

There's alot of work to be done, and alot of nice thoughts runing trough my head. I'm thinking of that morning, when I woke up, as soon as it got bright, you were sleeping quite close to me. I was watching you sleep, hoping that you won't turn to the other side. And I was so incedibly happy. I think you felt that look. You were lying there, so peaceful and calm, and beautiful, like always in the mornings. I was sleeping on the floor, but I haven't felt as comfortable in a very long time.

List of things to buy for cycling - sorted by importance

• windstopper (Gore-tex or Microfiber)
  
• distance meter
• backpack
• trunk - bike carrier for the car
  
• clipless pedals
• cycling shoes
  
• cycling gloves
• sunglasses
• repair toolkit
• spair inner tube
• watter-skin
  

Heavy hamster

They sound something like this. // 3gp video format

Lounge-radio.com <- recommended

If you leave me now, you’ll take away the biggest part of me
No baby please don’t go
If you leave me now, you’ll take away the very heart of me
No baby please don’t go

A love like ours is love that’s hard to find
How could we let it slip away
We’ve come too far to leave it all behind
How could we end it all this way
When tomorrow comes we’ll both regret
Things we said today

I'll be your baby tonight

Close your eyes, close the door,
You don't have to worry any more.
I'll be your baby tonight.

Shut the light, shut the shade,
You don't have to be afraid.
I'll be your baby tonight.

Well, that mockingbird's gonna sail away,
We're gonna forget it.
That big, fat moon is gonna shine like a spoon,
But we're gonna let it,
You won't regret it.

Kick your shoes off, do not fear,
Bring that bottle over here.
I'll be your baby tonight.

by Bob Dylan

Amsterdam photos

Been working from early morning, still not finished and it's already 7PM. Hardcore programming.

Few more days like this and I'll drop dead. This is inhuman.

Destination - Amsterdam

Route plan

Distance: 1300 km
Objective: facing the past

Cycling 01

First tour this year today. With a bicycle club.

Start point: Kidričevo
Distance: 40km
Trail: 80% unpaved road; 15% forrest trail, 5% paved road - mostly straight
Estimated time: 2.5 hours
Conditions: sunny and windy

Key to my heart belongs to you
Angel of the morning
Terribly I want you
Eternity I want to spend with you
Romance
Insane, maybe
Nobel.
Are you gonna marry me?

Seen the world with you
Apologised too many times
Pardon my French
Undo, and try again
No more pain
Only happines
Virtual and so real
And..you know.. (Amsterdam)

I'm trembeling, feeling all nervous, my hands are sweating. Chain smoking to make it all milder, doesn't really help. What the hell is wrong with me??!

The miracle of life

Just a tree, will you say?

--Things aren't always what they seem to be.

I'll never be me again!

It is hard to be me

The end of Seinfeld

Wow, 9 years, a 180 shows, same 12 boxes of serial, and millions ans millions of dollars.

And I watched them all, in couple of weeks. I got so used to it, that now I'm not quite sure what will I do in my free time..

Ah, I'll find something...

The girl from Ipanema

Have you ever wondered who inspired Antonio Carlos Jobim and Vinicius de Moraes to write this wonderful song?
SHE's got her own page right here. She was 18 at the time, now she's in late 50's..

Gloomy, dark, cold days..

They come and go. Can't escape them.

On days like this, one wishes only one thing. Warmth. To come home from work, have somebody waiting for you, to hug, eat lunch together, discuss things. To go to sleep to a non-empty bed.

I am not looking forward of going home from work. To my rooom, where I'll just sit by the computer, maybe do some things, pospone the others, watch some series, which will maybe even make me laough, and then go to sleep with a heavy heart..

It feels empty, my life.

You're going to reap just what you sow, they say.

Seems like I didn't put enough effort into my crops , and now I'm left with alomost nothing and alone. And I don't have the time to change it. It is changing, but way to slowly.

Jump, and make the world a better place: http://www.worldjumpday.org/

Sail on silver girl, sail on by. Your time has come to shine, All your dreams are on their way.
See how they shine, oh and when you need a friend, I'm sailing right behind..

Sometimes you can't make it on your own..

Some things are better unsaid, some tears are better uncried, sometimes it's necessary to convince yourself happiness is all around. It's in things one could never imagine.

What you believe, that is.

Why not forget all the bad times and remember only good ones.. Why feel sad, if it is not necassary at all. Why not go out and roll around in snow and scream like crazy. Why make sense. Why keep silent when you wanna say something. Why act strong. Why dedicate your life to a higher cause, when all you want is to get laid. Why forgive, if nothing is about to change?

Once the temple has been violated, it's impossible to worship it any more.

Good bye Clio

Sold my car today. For lousy $300. Forgot to mention that gear box has only few days left to live :P

But still, I didn't conn the buyers, I deducted a cost of a replacement gear box from the fair price for such car.

It's funny, that I published an add on internet, and 2 hours later, and 15 incoming calls later the car is already gone. One guy even asked if the price is some kind of joke, or I'm serious about selling it for so little. I can't help it, i'm fair person, that's why I'll never be rich :)

And the guys who bought it, are going to sell it right away again... for alot more, I'm sure.

I can hardly imagine spending a week without a car now..

Memoirs of a Geisha

The heart dies, a slow death,
shedding each hope like leaves
until one day there are none.
No hopes. Nothing remains.

Seinfeld..

George: Why even try anymore? There's no sense to it. I'm never gonna meet anybody, I should just accept it.

....
....

George: I mean it's gotten to the point where I'm flirting with operators on the phone. I almost made a date with one.

Jerry: Oh, so there's still hope.

George: I don't want hope. Hope is killing me. My dream is to become hopeless. When you're hopeless, you don't care, and when you don't care, that indifference makes you attractive.

Jerry: Oh, so hopelessness is the key.

George: It's my only hope.

The Rolling Stones - Miss you (repeat = ON)

I’ve been holding out so long
I’ve been sleeping all alone
Lord I miss you
I’ve been hanging on the phone
I’ve been sleeping all alone
I want to kiss you

Oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh
Oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh
Oooh oooh oooh

Oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh
Oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh oooh
Oooh oooh oooh oooh

.....

the Cast

 

Bird flu in Maribor

I work in a house located right on the embarkment of river Drava in Maribor. It's very nice location, and every now and then I go out to have a smoke and enjoy the view on the river peacfuly flowing by.
Drava has been quite poluted not so long ago, but lately improved environment care, stricter rules and new refinery have made it alot cleaner. This resulted in many birds taking this spot for their living space. Even in winter the area is full of ducks, swans, segals, etc...

But today my usual sight on birds enjoying their time on the river was a bit different. There was a boat, with 3 people wearing those contamination suits, looking like they're from space, picking up a dead swan out of the watter.. Seeing this otherwise proud and beautiful animal picked up like this into a plastic bag, knowing that flu which killed it could maybe also be deadly to people, isn't a very nice sight.

Love is in the air..

Valentine's.

I love you - always have, always will.

You know who you are.

I don't know what else to say.

The way it goes, nobody knows..

I'm never lonely. When I'm not busy with my work, I have my sister Pain, who's always with me, and there's my brother Internet, he's quite fun, and lately I'm hanging out alot with my acquaintance Seinfeld, he also never fails to make me smile..
Though I kinda got used to having sister Pain around, I think soon, I'll have to tell her that I also want to see other people, we kinda got too close. She's nice and all and we have long history together, but she got too keen on me, I think I'll have to suggest to her that we take a break, a week or something..

Skiing. It was great today. Specially the last jump. I thought there was one springboard, but surrprisingly, after I jumped one, there appeared 3 more, not seen from top of the hill and impossible to avoid. From 3rd (quite impressivly big) I jumped exatly on top of 4th one, the not steep part of it, and then few seconds later, I started to look, where my skies could be.. Except from skined face and most likely fractured wrist (I'll have to ask a doctor tomorrow morning about that one, it hurts like hell), I'm very fine. :) Finding a puddle of oil under my car later, and dead light-bulb in headlights only lifted my spirits even higher! :) Oh, and my butt also got acquainted with my sister Pain, I hope it's the beginig of a very short friendship :)

In My Secret Life

I saw you this morning.
You were moving so fast.
Can't seem to loosen my grip
On the past.
And I miss you so much.
There's no one in sight.
And we're still making love
In My Secret Life.
....

Hey, that's no way to say goodbye

I loved you in the morning, our kisses deep and warm,
your hair upon the pillow like a sleepy golden storm,
yes many loved before us, I know that we are not new,
in city and in forest they smiled like me and you,
but let's not talk of love or chains and things we can't untie,
your eyes are soft with sorrow,
Hey, that's no way to say goodbye.

O, Vrba

O Vrba, srečna draga vas domača,
kjer hiša mojega stoji očeta;
da b' uka žeja me iz tvoj'ga sveta
speljala ne bila golj'fiva kača!

Ne vedel bi kako se v strup preobrača
vse, kar srce si sladkega obeta;
mi ne bila bi vera v sebe vzeta
ne bil viharjev notranjih b' igrača!

Zvesto srce in delovno ročico
za doto, ki jo nima miljonarka,
bi bil dobil izvoljeno devico;

mi mirno plavala bi moja barka;
pred ognjem dom, pred točo mi pšenico
bi bližnji sosed varoval - svet' Marka.

France Prešeren (1800-1849)

LOST

Been Lost for couple of last days. Completely. Came home, closed the shades, and show began. Nobody has even seen much of me.

First thing I do in the morning, is turn my comp on, and the last thing before going to bed is turning it off. Every day.. Sometimes I already feel I'm turning to some kind of closed inside freak, which in time gets isolated from the world, and has his own world inside his head, which has little to do with reality.

Handball - European championship

Slovenia team standins after 3 games:

wins: 3
defeats: 0

We beat Switzerland, Ukraine and Poland! We rule! :)

More info here: euro06.com

Once comentator said, "Thanx god Slovenia has Siarhei Rutenka.. ". That's so true :). He's been man of the all 3 matches. Many credits also go to excellent goal-keeping of Gorazd Škof.
In general the performance of the team wasn't so great.. But, they can do it, remember the silver from last European Championship 04 which was taking place in Slovenia.

Behind the horizon

 

Joey

I had couple of Joey nights. Joey is a TV series. It's that Joey from Friends, they made a series, like a sequel of Friends, but he's the only character from there. He like moves to LA, to start a new carier as an actor. And there's his sister and her son, and his manager, his neighbour.. Anyways, I got a dvd with a whole season, and I spent last two nights watching it. I'm not ashamed to admit that I even cried at the end :). I'm not sure if it's because the end was so touchy, or becasue I realised it's the last part and there's no more to watch.

Breaking up

Cos I'm in love with a beautiful girl
She's the one from the magical world
And I hold her now when the rain starts to fall
I'm not afraid to move on

Today, after months of uncertainity, we finally broke up. Three years is a long time, and that's never easy. But when you realise the whole relationship is not going anywhere and the the love has died, it's the only smart thing to do.
There comes fear, of being alone and feeling lonely. And I'm sure such days will come very soon. Anf of course the shock to be in a "single" world again.

There were three the most beautiful years in my life. Full of love, passion, tenderness, long night calls, travels to Russia, great sex, excitement, great new experiences, beautiful vacations and so on. It was evrerything but ordinary.

I am grateful for those years and I'm not afraid to move on.

Thank you Katya, you've given me so much.

Sex and problems

The main difference between man and a woman regarding sex and problems is, that for a guy, sex is the way to forget about all the problems, and women can't have sex when something is bothering them.
And not understanding this can lead to a big conflict.
Life would be so much easier if I was impotent.

(*careful what you wish for, it might come true)

When we loose something, then we really see how precious it was.
When the heart is heavy, what is the cure?
When there's no goal, where do we go?

Almost ready

Got myslef new ski boots, ski jacket, ski pants and ski sox :)

I still need new skies, ski gloves, ski glasses and sticks.

Tomorrow there's Golden fox competition in Maribor, so ski area will be pretty busy and partialy closed. So going tomorrow is not a good idea.
Here I have to mention, that graphical design for the event, including all the posters and the fox itslef, has been made at our firm!

Go Tina, go Tina, go...

Dr. Floyd: What's that? Chicken?
Dr. Bill Michaels: Something like that. Tastes the same anyway.

05 in pictures

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October


November


December

Brno 05/06

We're back. Feelings about it are mixed.
It was definitely New Year's to remember. And I'm certain that I will never again travel with Bo-bo Tours. They put us to the worst "hotel" ever and wasted alot of our time and patience.

But on the other side it brought us peolpe on the bus together. I don't really care if the the room I'm in is the worst ever, if people who are with me are nice. And they were.

Brno is not really a city one would want to go to twice to, it's nothing special. The best thing about it were pubs, with big massive tables and cheap beer. And the Czech beer itself. The other thing Czech is famous for, beautiful Czech girls. Well, we didn't have the pleasure to meet any, actually to even see any! I don't know where are they hidding :)

We spent the new year's eve at Bobycentrum which is supposed to be second largest club in Europe. It's really huge complex, nice one, with four floors, three seperated (4?) clubs in there, with different shows and stuff. Quite glamourous.
Unfortunately we seperated with guys into two groups, so I didn't enjoy it to the fullest..

Some pictures attached. I took only 5 of them, so here's two.

Good old memories

Suddenly thought of Rome. Of our walk trough the city park called Villa Borhese, if I'm not mistaken. It's already year and a half since then. Man, time passes by quickly.
I remember that walk so well, it was so hot, beautiful day. And you looked so beautiful, incredibly sexy. Incredibly. With that violet skirt and green tight top, sun beams on your skin. So beautiful. When I watched you pour watter from park fountain my heart was smiling so wide, such beauty walking in a perfect day in a gorgeous city, with me.

 

Good bye two ou five

It's all pure white, everything covered with snow, so beautiful. I feel like skiing. Haven't skied for 5 years or so, now I got really exicted about it again. Have to buy complete skiing equipment, since my old is already too obsolete. Can't wait.

My coworker programmer got an offer at another firm and he accepted it. It means alot more work for me, since I'll be only programmer now.. Not too excited about it, even if my salary will go up. My work never felt like too serious and tough. I like it this way. It was so flexible, becasue I could just go someplace for 2 weeks when I thought of it, and nobody minded. Now this will change too I guess, and there will be bigger responsibility on me.

Started visiting fitness center regulary, for the first time in my life, and I like it. Feels good to do something for yourself, and I already feel I'm getting stronger :)

Going to Brno tomorrow and I'm already quite excited about it. The agency still haven't sent the programme and I have no idea what is organised there, where we'll be staying or where will we be for new year's night. But that's even better. To have no expectations, just go for it with light heart and taking it easy. Open for everything. I think it will be nice. Hurray.

Almost 2006

New year's is drawing near. I've got an answer to "And where will you be for new year's" question, and it's Brno.

I was already about to spend it alone, in car, driving, listening to radio, and just driving, without destination, maybe to Ljubljana to see mindnight fireworks or something.
But then 2 guys cancelled full bus to Brno, and now i can join my frineds there. I think it will be good. Party, alcohol (alot of it) and sightseeing. Like in old times. And I think it's better than being alone anyway. Hope it won't be as bad as my last New Year's of this kind, in Budva, where I was too drunk too even see years chganging, I was already lying drunk someplace in the club, not remembering anything..
Then my last 2 New Year's were just wonderful.

I'm still not used to the idea of being single, and still can't see myself with any other girl.

I just have to stop feeling sorry for myslef, and things will turn out well, I know.

Back to "work" and to making money for "future". Or, whatever.

joke

This must be the funniest blonde joke ever :))

Blogspotting

Choose your life. Choose blogging. Choose a hosting service. Choose TypePad or WordPress or some other piss you off blogware. Choose to alienate several friends, cow-orkers and other people you think you know.
Choose to navel gaze. Choose to analyse yourself almost to death. Choose an inane topic and beat it to death with pedantry. Choose to spout off political commentary like someone will actually listen. Choose to sound like you’re someone important, just like the other self-important ‘me-too!’ fuckwads wasting bandwith right along with you. Choose Google Ad Sense so we know you’re in it “for love”.
Choose comment flamewars lasting long into the night. Choose blogspam.
Choose wasting your life chasing after that elusive posting that will make you a ‘journalist’, pissing your hopes and dreams down the drain in an on-line ego trip. Choose your future.
Choose blogspotting.

Panthonimic game

"There're two words.." 

behind the scenes

Party's over, and so is my birthday mood. I'm typing this with my new keyboard which I got for present. Just the one I wanted, thanx guys :)
Party tunred out well, pantonimic game we played made me laugh so much that whole my face hurt. And today my head does from all the wine.. :)

I barely slept and I feel quite lousy today. I don't like sundays in genereal. I'm bored and there's nothing much to do here. And I do not feel like working.

Slovenia can be a very nice place to live, but not if you're alone. Gets lonely.
I'm meeting my frinends so often, that I'm already afraid we'll get tired of each other.

When lying on bed doing nothing, listening to nice music, one can't avoid thoughts bursting into your head. Unfortunately.

My condition can't be cured. I can only get distracted for a while. Maybe new girlfriend would help, but I'm not attracted to any woman right now. It takes it's time. And I'm not very patient. I don't feel like I'm living, I just feel time passing by, and getting older every day.. I don't see much sense in life lately. We just wait, do stuff, time passes by, we get older, eventually we die. That's it. It doesn't really matter if we're having fun or whatever, time will pass by anyway, and we'll die in any case. Why bother.

I was thinking of a new start, someplace. I though about moving to Australia, I heard they arrange jobs there. I do need my diploma, which is still very in begining phase. Damn it. Not having diploma yet has been excuse for not doing so many things already. I'm ashamed of myself. And all this work never ends and I never get around to really dedicating my time to it.

Still listening to Susheela Raman, downloaded all her albums, and it's just perfect sunday calm music.

And then this damn New Year's. I hate those questions about where I'm going.

I'm not welcome there.

You're not welcome. "I don't think it's a good idea". My god.

Birthday

I turned 26 yesterday.

Happy birthday to myself! I wish me luck in love!

It's not so happy really. One can't be too happy when person who is supposed to love you all your life suddenly says she doesn't anymore - no matter how you look at it.

There are few very lonely months in front of me.
I must forget and start over. Begining is always the hardest.

music

Susheela Raman - What silence said

love it

Supergirl

You can tell by the way, she walks that she's my girl
You can tell by the way, she talks that she rules the world.
You can see in her eyes that no one is her chain.
She's my girl, my supergirl.

When you're told not to think of someone, exactly the opposite happens.

Going to see this movie.

Burn baby, burn

I put up an artistic insatllment today. I burnt a sofa. Not just any sofa, it was my smoking sofa. It was on terase for years, to sit on when I had a smoke. I felt weird burning it. I get attached to things, but some just got to be removed sometimes, for good.
I was standing by the fire watching it, like hypnotised.
Now it's gone.

Rest in peace.

Reflections on November

Special moments, the ones that stay in your mind, the ones you really appreciate, the ones that you always love to remember because they mean alot, the ones that make life worth living.
Holding hands with your loved one walking the streets of a beautiful city, kisses and gentle talk on the escalator to the metro, watching Lock, stock and two smoking barrels with her in your lap explaining her what the "amp" is, watching her eat horrible food in McDonald's with way too many calories, meeting on the street after a bad argument- hugging and feeling relieved, having an erotic photo session with her best girlfriend, making her coffee in the evening and hearing "thank you" for it, buying her her favourite parfume, having a nap in the middle of the day hugged - arms and legs interlaced - feeling her breath when sleeping, carrying her from room to room becasue she got too drunk to walk, having dinner at her granny's, touching hands while having coffee with guys, laughing back to your life which is better than god damn Santa Barbara, hugging her mum because you did something stupid, eating pancakes with cheese outside, learning new words like "zhest" and "gobniki" and new meaning of "meso", runing to the street in underpants at 5 AM in winter.

Yea, those and many more, were the moments that will remain. Let's drink for more to come! Cheers

The man in me

He feeds on love. He can't tell imaginary love from real one. It's all the same to him.
Two days ago he stopped being fed. Now the bastard is torturing me, he wants his dose. He just won't let it go, he's addicted, he's making me sick, taking my appetite, taking my smile, my peace. He's triggering my mind, making me go hunt for it. I fail. He won't let go, bastard..
Somday, out of hunger, he will die. I'm affraid that part of me will die with him as well.

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