Good old memories

Suddenly thought of Rome. Of our walk trough the city park called Villa Borhese, if I'm not mistaken. It's already year and a half since then. Man, time passes by quickly.
I remember that walk so well, it was so hot, beautiful day. And you looked so beautiful, incredibly sexy. Incredibly. With that violet skirt and green tight top, sun beams on your skin. So beautiful. When I watched you pour watter from park fountain my heart was smiling so wide, such beauty walking in a perfect day in a gorgeous city, with me.

 

Good bye two ou five

It's all pure white, everything covered with snow, so beautiful. I feel like skiing. Haven't skied for 5 years or so, now I got really exicted about it again. Have to buy complete skiing equipment, since my old is already too obsolete. Can't wait.

My coworker programmer got an offer at another firm and he accepted it. It means alot more work for me, since I'll be only programmer now.. Not too excited about it, even if my salary will go up. My work never felt like too serious and tough. I like it this way. It was so flexible, becasue I could just go someplace for 2 weeks when I thought of it, and nobody minded. Now this will change too I guess, and there will be bigger responsibility on me.

Started visiting fitness center regulary, for the first time in my life, and I like it. Feels good to do something for yourself, and I already feel I'm getting stronger :)

Going to Brno tomorrow and I'm already quite excited about it. The agency still haven't sent the programme and I have no idea what is organised there, where we'll be staying or where will we be for new year's night. But that's even better. To have no expectations, just go for it with light heart and taking it easy. Open for everything. I think it will be nice. Hurray.

Almost 2006

New year's is drawing near. I've got an answer to "And where will you be for new year's" question, and it's Brno.

I was already about to spend it alone, in car, driving, listening to radio, and just driving, without destination, maybe to Ljubljana to see mindnight fireworks or something.
But then 2 guys cancelled full bus to Brno, and now i can join my frineds there. I think it will be good. Party, alcohol (alot of it) and sightseeing. Like in old times. And I think it's better than being alone anyway. Hope it won't be as bad as my last New Year's of this kind, in Budva, where I was too drunk too even see years chganging, I was already lying drunk someplace in the club, not remembering anything..
Then my last 2 New Year's were just wonderful.

I'm still not used to the idea of being single, and still can't see myself with any other girl.

I just have to stop feeling sorry for myslef, and things will turn out well, I know.

Back to "work" and to making money for "future". Or, whatever.

joke

This must be the funniest blonde joke ever :))

Blogspotting

Choose your life. Choose blogging. Choose a hosting service. Choose TypePad or WordPress or some other piss you off blogware. Choose to alienate several friends, cow-orkers and other people you think you know.
Choose to navel gaze. Choose to analyse yourself almost to death. Choose an inane topic and beat it to death with pedantry. Choose to spout off political commentary like someone will actually listen. Choose to sound like you’re someone important, just like the other self-important ‘me-too!’ fuckwads wasting bandwith right along with you. Choose Google Ad Sense so we know you’re in it “for love”.
Choose comment flamewars lasting long into the night. Choose blogspam.
Choose wasting your life chasing after that elusive posting that will make you a ‘journalist’, pissing your hopes and dreams down the drain in an on-line ego trip. Choose your future.
Choose blogspotting.

Panthonimic game

"There're two words.." 

behind the scenes

Party's over, and so is my birthday mood. I'm typing this with my new keyboard which I got for present. Just the one I wanted, thanx guys :)
Party tunred out well, pantonimic game we played made me laugh so much that whole my face hurt. And today my head does from all the wine.. :)

I barely slept and I feel quite lousy today. I don't like sundays in genereal. I'm bored and there's nothing much to do here. And I do not feel like working.

Slovenia can be a very nice place to live, but not if you're alone. Gets lonely.
I'm meeting my frinends so often, that I'm already afraid we'll get tired of each other.

When lying on bed doing nothing, listening to nice music, one can't avoid thoughts bursting into your head. Unfortunately.

My condition can't be cured. I can only get distracted for a while. Maybe new girlfriend would help, but I'm not attracted to any woman right now. It takes it's time. And I'm not very patient. I don't feel like I'm living, I just feel time passing by, and getting older every day.. I don't see much sense in life lately. We just wait, do stuff, time passes by, we get older, eventually we die. That's it. It doesn't really matter if we're having fun or whatever, time will pass by anyway, and we'll die in any case. Why bother.

I was thinking of a new start, someplace. I though about moving to Australia, I heard they arrange jobs there. I do need my diploma, which is still very in begining phase. Damn it. Not having diploma yet has been excuse for not doing so many things already. I'm ashamed of myself. And all this work never ends and I never get around to really dedicating my time to it.

Still listening to Susheela Raman, downloaded all her albums, and it's just perfect sunday calm music.

And then this damn New Year's. I hate those questions about where I'm going.

I'm not welcome there.

You're not welcome. "I don't think it's a good idea". My god.

Birthday

I turned 26 yesterday.

Happy birthday to myself! I wish me luck in love!

It's not so happy really. One can't be too happy when person who is supposed to love you all your life suddenly says she doesn't anymore - no matter how you look at it.

There are few very lonely months in front of me.
I must forget and start over. Begining is always the hardest.

music

Susheela Raman - What silence said

love it

Supergirl

You can tell by the way, she walks that she's my girl
You can tell by the way, she talks that she rules the world.
You can see in her eyes that no one is her chain.
She's my girl, my supergirl.

When you're told not to think of someone, exactly the opposite happens.

Going to see this movie.

Burn baby, burn

I put up an artistic insatllment today. I burnt a sofa. Not just any sofa, it was my smoking sofa. It was on terase for years, to sit on when I had a smoke. I felt weird burning it. I get attached to things, but some just got to be removed sometimes, for good.
I was standing by the fire watching it, like hypnotised.
Now it's gone.

Rest in peace.

Reflections on November

Special moments, the ones that stay in your mind, the ones you really appreciate, the ones that you always love to remember because they mean alot, the ones that make life worth living.
Holding hands with your loved one walking the streets of a beautiful city, kisses and gentle talk on the escalator to the metro, watching Lock, stock and two smoking barrels with her in your lap explaining her what the "amp" is, watching her eat horrible food in McDonald's with way too many calories, meeting on the street after a bad argument- hugging and feeling relieved, having an erotic photo session with her best girlfriend, making her coffee in the evening and hearing "thank you" for it, buying her her favourite parfume, having a nap in the middle of the day hugged - arms and legs interlaced - feeling her breath when sleeping, carrying her from room to room becasue she got too drunk to walk, having dinner at her granny's, touching hands while having coffee with guys, laughing back to your life which is better than god damn Santa Barbara, hugging her mum because you did something stupid, eating pancakes with cheese outside, learning new words like "zhest" and "gobniki" and new meaning of "meso", runing to the street in underpants at 5 AM in winter.

Yea, those and many more, were the moments that will remain. Let's drink for more to come! Cheers