behind the scenes

Party's over, and so is my birthday mood. I'm typing this with my new keyboard which I got for present. Just the one I wanted, thanx guys :)
Party tunred out well, pantonimic game we played made me laugh so much that whole my face hurt. And today my head does from all the wine.. :)

I barely slept and I feel quite lousy today. I don't like sundays in genereal. I'm bored and there's nothing much to do here. And I do not feel like working.

Slovenia can be a very nice place to live, but not if you're alone. Gets lonely.
I'm meeting my frinends so often, that I'm already afraid we'll get tired of each other.

When lying on bed doing nothing, listening to nice music, one can't avoid thoughts bursting into your head. Unfortunately.

My condition can't be cured. I can only get distracted for a while. Maybe new girlfriend would help, but I'm not attracted to any woman right now. It takes it's time. And I'm not very patient. I don't feel like I'm living, I just feel time passing by, and getting older every day.. I don't see much sense in life lately. We just wait, do stuff, time passes by, we get older, eventually we die. That's it. It doesn't really matter if we're having fun or whatever, time will pass by anyway, and we'll die in any case. Why bother.

I was thinking of a new start, someplace. I though about moving to Australia, I heard they arrange jobs there. I do need my diploma, which is still very in begining phase. Damn it. Not having diploma yet has been excuse for not doing so many things already. I'm ashamed of myself. And all this work never ends and I never get around to really dedicating my time to it.

Still listening to Susheela Raman, downloaded all her albums, and it's just perfect sunday calm music.

And then this damn New Year's. I hate those questions about where I'm going.

I'm not welcome there.

You're not welcome. "I don't think it's a good idea". My god.