She is so beautiful. I can't stop stareing at her.. And she's got a voice of an angel. She smells like one too.

One day I will wake up and she won't be sleeping in my bed next to me. And all this will feel like it was just a dream..

Another meeting¸

My dear is coming today. I'm soon leaving to airport to meet her. I feel nervous.
I guess that after few minutes with her, I will know. I will know if this meeting is our last one..

Monster in law

Seen this movie yesterday. I didn't like it, and didn't even finish watching it. There was Star Wars II on TV :)
Haven't watched new Hollywood movies lately. By watching this one I asume I haven't missed much. Jane Fonda is Jennifer Lopez's mother in law.. Jennifer is good though, but this kind of movies make me sick. Everyone is very rich there, living in perfect house, perfect car, perfect carier, everyting god damn perfect. Who cares if she's a bitch.
Do not recommend this movie.

Life goes on

I realised I'm too damn sensitive. Worked on it for last 2 days and progress is noticeable. I feel fine.

»Ko bi govoril človeške in angelske jezike, ljubezni pa bi ne imel, sem brneč bron ali zveneče cimbale. In ko bi imel dar preroštva in ko bi poznal vse skrivnosti in imel vso vednost in ko bi imel vso vero, da bi gore prestavljal, ljubezni pa ne bi imel, nisem nič. In ko bi razdal vse svoje imetje in ko bi žrtvoval svoje telo, da bi zgorel, pa ne bi imel ljubezni, mi nič ne koristi.« (1. Kor.13, 1-4).

Feels weird to quote Bible, but this popular verse from St. Paul's letter came to my mind. The messege is, that if he could move mountains, etc. .. if he had everything, but he had no love, he's nothing.

I was telling the same thing to myself, and putting "love" above all. My definition of love is different than Paul's, though. He meant love as when you love others, for me love is when I'm loved by others..

Things that are happening to me lately seem so unnatural and untrue. Fake. But they're still happening. Is it all just pretence, or can it all be true?

Today my mind is clear. I can work with a very impressive tempo. I feel proud and strong. I feel fine..

Tough times

I'm going trough very tough period of my life. I feel depressed almost every minute when I'm alone. I don't remeber when I was last completely relaxed and feeling careless. I feel it is not good for my health.
In a week I'm going to vacation to Africa, I never even think about it. Like I don't really beliave it's really going to happen.
"My girl" is coming soon too. She's more like some distant friend than anything else.
When I get home from work today, I have to go someplace with bike again. Now I don't really feel like, but I know then when cycling I will forget all my troubles when going up some hill..

On saturday we're going with my cycling buddies on tour. It's going to be offroad. 15 km uphil and then quite dangeours downhill. I don't really care if I get injured.

I am currently employed for one firm, and I'm also in cooperation with 3 others, and besides all this I have some private projects. It doesn't mean I have alot of money. It only means alot of phone calls and it keeps my mind occupied all the time. I like that.

I don't read lately. Or watch TV. I hope I passed the exam. Then I can go on working on my diploma. Well, start working on it actually. At least I have practical part of it already done, and my knowledge about the subject is good.

At least the weather in September is very nice. Perfect day for cycling..