Left out

My girlfriend is going to vacation to Egypt tomorrow morning. Without me.

She told me today. First I was shocked, then I kinda hardly accepted it.

What hurts me is that she never consulted me about it. I wouldn't say "no", of course, but I would feel important about letting her go.

I don't want to talk to her before leaving.

It feels too weird. I don't want her to go without me. No, actually I don't want her to want to go without me.

I feel sad.

I bought 19 inch LCD monitor as compensation.